August 18, 2011
It used to be so much easier to take chances when consequences meant nothing. It seems like just yesterday I had no fear of failing anything and now it’s almost as if I’m afraid to try. It’s only the big things that make me hesitate. You know the tasks that require long-term commitments, or for me to open up for an extended period of time.
Repression is a beast that we have all learned to live with. No matter how uncomfortable it makes us it’s very rare that we let everything out. It is an unfortunate fact that we nurture our pain like we nurture our children until it becomes unbearable. We only deal with it when we have no choice and I am no exception. I would like to change however. I need to take that chance.
-YB